a quiet time is all i need...a quiet time, alone.: she's going
Friday, June 17, 2005
::sAme:: 9:34 AM



SHE'S GOING SOON.
HE'S PREPARED.
WE'RE RELATED BY BLOOD.
NEVER MET HER BEFORE THOUGH.
he's my dad.
she's my paternal grandmother.
we've spoken over the phone before. stil, we never did meet.
i called him...he told me the news.
he sounded strong.
but still, i could tell he wasnt prepared for it.
he wasnt the best any family would want.
we dont live together.
now...his mum is dying in another country and all he knows is that she's weak...VERY...
i wish i was there.
to comfort those seeking it and to grieve with those who grieve.
i dont know what to do neither do i know what i to say;to comfort him
i sounded hardy over the phone...and filled with nothing but APATHY.
but over here...deep inside...im beginning to bleed. to bleed for her.
once we hung up the telephone lines, i started to tear...
a single tear...and then i really cried...thinking about their fate.
i need help...i seriously do...
someone please come to me to give me all the support and advise possible.
i'm freaking alone now...
i need someone that would willingly lend me a shoulder that i can cry on...
saddd~